I didn't want this week to go by without publicly praising God for this anniversary of sorts. 2 years ago this week we were in Iraq and were struggling to come to terms with the loss of our first pregnancy. I thought that was the end of our story... but God had a different ending. Two weeks later we would see the heart beat of our baby and find out that we had been pregnant with twins but still had a healthy baby. As I was watching H laugh and play this week I remembered those weeks 2 years ago and what God did in my heart through that time. Even if the story had ended as I expected instead of with a baby, God would still be just as good.
He has been showing me this again in new ways, that he has a Father's heart and longs to give us good things. In the same way that I love to make H happy and do things with him and for him that bring him delight, God has a heart even more like that towards each of His children. As I have been praying for other loved ones in my life who are going through difficult things, I have felt the need to pray that they would experience anew the Father's heart of goodness. The way that God enjoys each of us and longs to do good to us can get lost sometimes when we are in really painful circumstances. I don't claim to understand why God gives and takes away the things He does, but I am certain of His goodness towards us. So, today I just wanted to say, Thank you, Lord. Thank you, for your goodness to us 2 years ago when we were deep in grief and thank you, for your goodness to us today as we delight in H daily.
“Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! Matthew 7: 9-11